Thursday, January 28, 2010



let bygones be bygones then... =/

看着很多朋友还在大学里努力着,赶着没完没了的assignments and test

一定要尽快搞好masters的事 >.<

and of course, 我们下一次见面啦! xD


hoho...noseless! =P

p/s: listen to this ba..i love it!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010






既古代又现代爱hip hop也爱李白



谢谢你欣不欣赏 我的风格是限量

something haunting me these few days.

I don't have to tell in details here as you girls knew it already.
i guess, something went wrong in my mind yesterday or the day before which makes me made a very wrong decision. 

i hessitated to post in my OWN blog! and,
i had deleted some of the post in my OWN blog because i realized that someone i know, have been reading our blog for a long time, for at least 6 months!!

well, after reading for such a long time, he got what he want; he got a so- called secret of mine.

i don't like to call it as 'SECRET'! as its so untrue!!
i never hide it, its just that no one dares to tell.
and for sure, i WILL NEVER go and tell him myself. (unless im on my way to be a psychiartry patient!!)

Its true that i was shocked when i saw he posted something in facebook because as he is posting, the secret will be in public. instead of shock, why don't i say im beh syok?! i don't mind you read it without my permission, but must you spread the news around??

some said, why don't i take this opportunity to know what will be 'his' response?
Yeah, it sounds good, but i don't think the response will come out as what i wish.

In short, i don't want to face the fact. and in the real life, i do run away from him.
I didn't msg him out for lunch or dinner for the weekends as i don't want to be rejected; i tried not to speak to him in the class as i don't want to have a polite but strange conversation with him!.... till today, when i realized that he didn't see any post in facebook or realized about this so called secret. i can think wisely and properly now!

Nothing had happened.
Nothing has changed.
some people started to suspect, but what can they do?

but i changed.
and I regret!


i shouldn't give a way to anyone..i shouldn't delete my post just because it's seen and could be an evidence to proof something?!

Yeah..i want to be myself! i want to be how i used to be!

i will not stop posting everything here which i usually do;
this blog will remain public as sue wish!
everythin will go back to its own position!
my stand is very strong now and i will not change my mind anymore!

i don't care how much you or others know,so what if you tell the whole world!??!???
i ain't anything wrong, am i?!

Here, Im the KING!!!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

wish vs hope

I wish.....


I hope.......

Is a wish same as a hope??

Thursday, January 21, 2010


i said this for the 4th time for today...
punish me!!

i didn't want to say rude words~ you guys know, i don't use rude words!

but im really verry very very very cannot tahan!!!!!!!!

oh my god!!

never seen such disorganized department one!!
4 lecturers are teaching and you have to learn 4 formats for one topic!
if one of the lecturers ask you to read 2 books, imagine how many books we are EXPECTED for one night?! i can't sleep for 2-3 hours per day only from now onwards can i?! NO! its unhealthy! and i guarantee nothing will be registered into my mind!!!

do some calculations: one night study 4 main topics, one topic is expected to read from more than one book, one book is probably at least 5 pages for each topic! at least 40 pages in one saying it..AT LEAST! my class finished at 6. even i don't take a nap, i eat bread as dinner, i don't online and i start studying by 6:30pm. how long do you think i can study? ok..lets say i study till 2pm. do you think i can read, understand, memorize, recall ALL?!! and complete all the assignments in time!?
impossible man!!!!

say our answers are nonsenses?!
please lah..your ideas are rediculous!!!!!

if i use the time to think and understand, i don't have time to memorize; then the lec will say why u don't study?! WHAT WERE YOU DOING LAST NIGHT?! make love with someone, should i answer that?!
if i memorize without udnerstanding, and don't know how to apply; then the lec will scold you! 'you must understand what are you reading! you can't simply memorize everything!!' wah...DAMN You!!!!!!!!!!!

you thought im taking course to take part in MEMORIZING COMPETITION is it?!!!

im fed up!!!!!

im very gehk qi ar!!!!

i cannot study what i want, i cannot plan for myself, i have to follow words by words, step by step...
Is the social expecting a mature man behave like this?!!

if its true, We are in a hopeless country!!!

Saturday, January 16, 2010








one of my batch mate had passed away this morning.
A shocking news to all of us. rest in peace Ganesha!

If, one day, i left accidentally, i hope i could at least leave a last words to my loves one.
want all my friends --especially shu xian, yi ying, carolyn, meizhi,justin, karen, xinyin, see min,jian fa, jian hao,yin ye, yee yong, waicheng, elsa, chee khang, chen chuan,kean chee, jien yeen, f4,swee en, soon yiu, shi san, kaixin , jeremy, jia shen, qianyi, kok, kok eon,loo hoang,ji yun, shir ling.... ..............
to live better than ever.
I want all my family members to stay happy and healthy.
remember my laughing, my noisy voices, my lousy jokes, my scolding, my style, my belief; gets motivated as i will always be with you all!:)
and ya, last but not least, currently, i hope HE will know that the girl who has gone used to like him..used to hope that he can treat her better..

hugz hugz..^^


May 16-01-2010:)







Thursday, January 14, 2010






p/s: 表面看来没什么,

不要吻我 只要抱着我
不要爱我 做我的亲人
把手借我 一天一分钟
不是谁的情人 谁的某某某

got to know this song through a friend today, and i dedicate this song back to him as it suits him perfectly at the moment...

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


Monday, January 11, 2010

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

Maybe i shouldn't be too judgmental about you.
but you're being very hypocritical
practically everything you do is oh-so-deceiving!
名副其实的Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde..
sugar-coated words
pretend to be all nice, innocent and polite
wow, aren't you the nicest person around here?
yea my ass!!

okay, enough of my out of the blue's rant.
i blame PMS! >.<

p/s: by the way, go "avatarize" yourself!
click here! it's fun xD

Saturday, January 9, 2010

it's chemicalized.

my hair has been chemicalized.

it's my first (probably my last too!) time tried hair rebonding.
if you know me well enough, then you should know i don't like to spend much on my hair...why would i make an exceptional this time then?
reason 1: it's for CNY
reason 2, which is also the main reason: it's for my graduation ceremony in march which will be held in singapore (HOPEFULLY it can tahan until then la..) but i'm so hoping that i could go back to adelaide for graduation actually! haihz, if only...... T___T
the reason that i did it so early is because i'm scared that they will increase the price as CNY approaching, and also ever since i came back from adelaide, my hair has been really really unmanageable, even the hair straightener won't help! damn the humidity!

要美,真的需要付出代价的! damn.
and the 代价 is hours and hours of sitting there...doing nothing...and let the hairdresser does whatever it requires to be done. nearly bored to death man!! i remember i fell asleep nearing the end of the process..and the alarm woke me up! ish...was so tired once i reached home... >.<
anyway, hope this new hairdo can tahan as long as possible la..if not there goes my $$..

can anyone tell me how to sleep with newly rebonded hair? i find it really hard to sleep without worrying that i'll destroy the shape...arhh! why so mafan?!
not gonna do this anymore..
dear hair, i've been exposing you to different chemicals (which is really really bad), i wont torture you anymore eventhough you might look like a lump of dried out grass.

p/s: no hair washing for 3 days...are you kidding me?! o.O

p/p/s: i noticed A LOT of girls go for curly hairstyle this year...hmm...i see a trend coming up soon xD

After one and a half year....

we are back to the land we belonged to!
both of us are BACK!
si si wen wen....
who is fairer?
let's adjust the photo so that kel can fit into the photo as well!

get tired to see Pretty ladies and proper photos?!
ready for as-usual extraordinary pose?!

2 pigs...transformed from DRAGON!
we are little kids...naif...idiotic look...
back to the earth....

copy right @!

Friday, January 8, 2010

When i see you smile....


Sometimes I wonder
How I'd ever make it through,
Through this world without having you
I just wouldn't have a clue

'Cause sometimes it seems
Like this world's closing in on me,
And there's no way of breaking free
And then I see you reach for me

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you, baby
And everything's alright,
everything's alright

When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, oh oh,
I see it shining right through the rain
When I see you smile
Oh yeah, baby when I see you smile at me

Baby there's nothing in this world
that could ever do
What a touch of your hand can do
It's like nothing that I ever knew

And when the rain is falling
I don't feel it,
'cause you're here with me now
And one look at you baby
Is all I'll ever need,
you're all I'll ever need

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you baby
And everything's alright,
everything's alright

So right... =)

ps: should go and see my friend's triangular shape of mouth while smiling...:p

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

A 'daytime'-mare~

huu....i survived for my monday morning posting and evening lectures and doing presentation's slides at night yesterday..after a night trip from penang to melaka! think i will try this more often since i was able to reach melaka by 6.30am!!

today wasn't a tiring day. yet i slept for 2 and a half hours after class.
i wished i didn't sleep that much if the bad dreams come later in my sleep!

it was a scary, dangerous yet funny dream.

here it goes..

I was in Penang. My aunty from Brunei came back to visit us and plan to have a dinner gathering. As my big aunt scolded my sister, we didn't fetch them but meet them in the restaurant itself. I wasn't driving my red wira, but my dad left his van for me. The van goes by itself without anyone controlling once the engine is started until the point where we meet traffic lights. Then, to make it move, we have to drive ourselves. Therefore, i have to drive the van to the restaurant without lisence! Nothing happened and we reached the restaurant safely.

after dinner, before we left, i met Joshua and Jack Tee. (well..i have totally NO IDEA how they would enter my dream, 日有所思,夜有所梦is untrue for their case..i never thought about them pun!!!). their car has some i have to fetch them to their destination. However, i don't know why i fetch them to my house. Next, i was blocked by the police after i turned in to Jalan Besi. I was very steady and created a fantastic story to the police. The police was unable to charge me or what but have to let me go! whooray...also, from the moment onwards, Jack was chatting with me happily in the car. (he seldom talks to GIRLS!) then, they disappeared after we reached my house...Vanished....:p

the scene continued to my kitchen. Mum was cooking something delicious and my favourite to me. she was very concentrating on the dish, worrying that she cannot cook it perfectly! I was asked to go the minimarket to buy something. when i stepped out from the lift, i saw lightennig shines onto the ground. and then, it lights up the road and plantation and everything is in fire! more and more lightning shoots around my apartment and i could see my dad from far. he was asking me to save mummy..i called her, but she doesn't belief it and refused to come out to see the lightning as she wants to cook probably for me!

i ended up ran back to my house to drag my mum for lives. Women's tragedy..we were trying to pack some valueables..and so we couldn't escape! we were in fear of dying..and i regret for not knowing an answer..many thoughts came into my mind..and i realized that i miss the world. I haven't done many things! There are a lot of adventure and new experiences that i haven't explored because of idiotic theory i had in my mind.....I want to go on....

we died??


my dad came to save his wife and his daughter~!^^

~the end~

what is the moral of the dream...??

ps: why Joshua and Jack Tee will enter my dream!?!??!??????WHY???

Friday, January 1, 2010


if there is a year end post, so is this year...emm..beginning post?!

Im so glad that i can celebrate the very first day of the year in PENANG!!! after so many years~! yeah~~!!
i don't feel down anymore after i saw my parents and lied down on my bed..
i felt extremely comfortable and happy and safe!!
HOME, this is what we called?!
again, im lazy to leave the house already...haha...this is where i belonged to~~!!!!

Happy NEW YEAR~!!
to the stalker as well....but damn you~:)

ps: i m still waiting for 2 phone calls....! $^$#$!@##%^ faster call me cant wait le!!!!!!^^

2010. xD

First post of the year.

Happy new year to whoever reading this =D
unusually, i've lost the usual vibe to celebrate new year this time. didn't feel like going for countdown at malls anymore, don't know why.. maybe it's the sign that i'm getting older >.<

1st of january.
my 4th day in penang since i came back from adelaide.
so far i havent start missing adelaide YET, cuz i'm enjoying myself in penang! with foodssss and entertainment am i going to miss adelaide so soon? :p
been eating hawker food since i touched down penang, even the first evening itself. after dropped my freaking heavy luggage at home, straightaway i headed to the nearest hawker centre already xD cannot tahan la...
somehow hearing people speaking in hokkien makes me feel all warm inside =)
it's the feeling of HOME

my sister said if i continue like that, she'll get fat really fast! hahaha...because i dragged her to eat hawker food with me almost everyday xD summore one day eat a few times, each time a few types of hawker food. but compared to adelaide, the potion here really really small lo, no wonder last time i ate until how also cannot gain weight, but when i was in adelaide, within 2 months already gained...erm..a few kgs >.<

anyway, i'm still adapting to the weather here...i seriously cannot stand the humidity! the first and second day in penang i was feeling like a walking adhesive glue, whole body 粘粘的...haihz...til now i still need to switch on the air con whenever i'm in the room..really cannot tahan!
good news is, i didn't suffer from jet lag AT ALL.

and once again,
HAPPY 2010 everyone!

after 10 months plus, i set foot in gurney once again =D
(oopss, the christmas tree ter-cut by some amateur photographer!)

p/s: currently i'm so hooked on 3 songs: Warp 1.9 by The Bloody Beetroots (this song alone is more than enough to annoy my sis hahaha! 1, 2 woop woop!!), Tick Tock by Kesha, and Down by Jay Sean!!