Year end post~

Its going to the end for 2009; yet im not ready for 2010!!
i should be more responsible and more hardworking and more mature from 2010 onwards! hopefully i can make it! I will try for sure..but maybe india's life was too bored and i just can't stop or control myself to have fun in Malaysia!! Melacca is a sienzz place if compared to KL　or penang~

I will be leaving to penang tonight at 10pm.
Yeah..i will be spending my time in the bus and wish those san hmm sek cak punya orang happy new year in the bus later. How many people will stay awake at that moment later?
No idea..simply no idea..!

obviously, im 'emo' again. I was very excited and happy to go back until 1 hour ago.
i wish she never remind me or said those things to me just now!
if you never said that i treat you nice,i wouldn't be so sad now....
if you never said you want to go out, i wouldn't plan, i wouldn't expect anything tonight and i will not be so down now!
Perhaps im too greedy...perhaps, im always surrounded by friends..perhaps, i always wish that people will at least treat me the same as how i treat them.. perhaps, i had overestimated myself--im still not get used to be left behind by others!!
haiz... i know i shouldn't be selfish, but do you know that i feel like crying when i sms you saying its fine,some more have to be in a 'happy' tone??

its not easy to be generous, its not easy be a polite lady, its not easy tolerate everybody especially the closed one, its not easy to manage relationship with others!! really...is the toughest things i ever met!

How i wish i can go back to the time when i can voice out everyhting to everyone?! either to my best friend or just a passed by one???
why is it so difficult to keep everything to myself now??
why must everyone be so polite to others?!
why am i looked so strong?!
for a same situation, no one will ever bother me..no one will ever think that i can't overcome or solve it!!! When is these all insane things started?!
HECK!!!!!

when i tend to be mysterious, someone taught me to SHARE~
when i learn to share, people said i never stopped talking!
when i stop talking, someone said im angry~
SO?!


心碎了无痕……一点儿也没错…………
掩饰得越好，越少人发现你的存在…………
迟在，不会有人知道，不会有人在意，你在想什么，做什么…………

Flashback *updated

Seeing that i'll be leaving adelaide very soon, i think i'll just post a few entries (or i might combine all at one, haha, laziness =P) this post is to summarize briefly about my life in australia. it's probably my last post from adelaide...and hopefully i can finish it on time i've finished it!

the who, what, when

too many stuff to add, hence they'll not be in chronological order =P

she was one of my few closest friends in adelaide.

we took biochemistry for both semester and she was my lab partner.

my partner in crime, camwhore buddy and clubbing kaki.

also my only female pool opponent and my motivation during exam period.

and probably the only one who appreciates my typical asian eyes =.=

how i wish i'm as ambitious and determined as you >.<

anyway. hope to see you in penang when you're coming here in jan (hopefully! cuz you said you would come to visit me! bluek!)

a few of events/outings that we attended together: MLS pubcrawl, international student farewell, biochem dinner, red square, royal adelaide show, uni of adelaide, HQ and my place (cooking together) xD i wont forget how we rushed to finish our poster for presentation just a day before too =P

the group i usually hang out with xD can never get a complete group pic...aiks..

it's very hard to have everyone gather together as most of us stay in different suburbs, and taking different subjects..etc..

more than half of them went back already.. anyway,til we meet again for our peninsular malaysia trip =D

my 老友记 Jeremy's birthday! first time tried kangaroo meat, though only a bit >.<

first time went windy point to admire the night view of adelaide xD

another birthday celebration. and cat touching session! xD

siew pei!! the eldest among ALL of us.. xD

good in cooking and baking, always asked me to eat healthily...seeing that i always skipped meal during the first semester. how nice if i really have an elder sis like her! always suggested us (new) places to makan..maybe my sudden gained of weight was partly due to her =P

left adelaide after graduated during july.. :(

p/s: i still remember that bear^^

sai lou, ah tim.

who went through a rather "major" makeover earlier this year haha! and at the moment proudly possessed his six packs xD

the karaoke king and laughing champion (always makes me distracted with his trademark laughter during lab session >.<) one of the very few rare one whom i feel totally comfortable with here...

i always LOL at our pics! especially those whacky ones... =D

i'm soooo glad that you were here with me in adelaide, besides Jeremy and Jialin, you are actually the one that i know the longest in adelaide. anyway, we'll be seeing each other again real soooooon! ♥

Big-D. the only one that knows my brother too! xD really admire his passion in science, always can see him reading journals (even on the bus!) and thanks heaps for the lovely fusion xmas dinner! 1,2,3 super smile (where's your ultra smile?)=D

the one who makes me addicted to playing poker, and gamble for the first time (and won! hehee...) in adelaide >.<

Denise :D

hang out with her so often during the first semester until i really lost count already. my genetics bioinformatic partner! how did we ever get through those hideous bioinfo session? >.<

don't know since when, we had this routine of going marketing together after our genetics class on friday during the first semester.

both of us came out with nicknames for others...such as the notorious yong sui! nyuek!

was really bu she de her when she went back for good back in august..at the beginning of my 2nd semester was really not used to not having her around as we used to go to uni together, and went home together too.

zhong kar yan no.2 =D

definitely one of the leng luis in the group. my biotech groupmate, we worked on our assignments together and blur together too =P

she might seem tiny, but you don't wanna mess with her cuz she knows judo! so don't judge a book by its cover..hehe! admirers 多到不行!

and one of her many weird hobbies is to poke sai lou's six packs =P

officially the youngest of all. even younger than sai lou.

nick name "aiks..." hahaha! the male poser in the group, always able to come out with spontaneous whacky poses whenever you flash the camera at him! and the only one with plenty jackets that he could change each one everyday for a week =P

the earliest one to go back malaysia. huhu...goodluck in your last semester next year!

my lesbo partner bee ai jie..

the one who helped me to cut and colour my hair...the hairdresser in the group..she's freaking good at changing guy's hairstyle. really can make an average looking guy into a really handsome + yeng one! serious!

also my revision buddy during exam period, the intensive one =P

the one who liked to tease my penangite's slang..

also the most sporty one, basketball, badminton, pingpong..etc...i miss playing with you already! if everything goes smoothly, i shall see you in a month's time =D

Josh!! the one who lives the closest to me =D

i could just walk a few steps to reach his place and knock on his room's window! sometimes it saved the need of sms-ing or calling him xP a must-have company for clubbing, he can protect you! seeing his size lol...practises kickboxing leh >.<>

had a few total random outings together, such as hungry jacks in the middle of the night after revision, minum session til the early morning with perng, lasi and bobby..etc..

the only one who called me "Ju Jian" lol, my father sometimes calls me that too!

and one more thing, don't push yourself soooo hard during gyming! hope your back is getting better after the operation.

hmm, when can i see you again Josh?!?

GML, is what we like to call her xD

personally i think she has the nicest voice among all of us..can become a radio DJ already hehe...a very sweet and innocent girl indeed! and she's still single yay!

such innocent girl is really hard to come by these days...hmm, must appreciate! =D

and i miss sleepovers in your room already...sigh...

grace and pw.

grace is the mother of da house! hahaha! and my fondest memory with her would be the eyebrow plucking session! i still remember it was so random and spontaneous that she asked me lay on the bed and started the torturing and yet funny experience when i went over their place for sleepover. thanks for making my thick thick eyebrows now looks like a real lady lol...and making me looks slightly prettier ahaha! xD as for pw, she's like my walking mandarin dictionary cuz her mandarin is so powerful that whenever i don't understand any chinese character i would go ask her =D

a super totoro fan, it's so easy that for her birthday you don't need to think but just get her anything related to totoro LOL!

not to forget about the girls who indirectly helped in increasing my alcohol tolerance.

i didn't really know how to drink, besides some beer before i came to adelaide. but now, bring those hard liquor/wine on babeh! hahaha :p

i'm the only one (most probably) not coming back next year...how sad!

congratz caroline for getting scholarship for to continue her PhD, amrita and anne for getting places in genetics honours :D

oh no.. i didnt realise until i tried to dig out our pictures: though we spent quite a significant amount of time together, we didnt take much pictures together did we? >.<

anyway, you're my first official (since the first day i touched down adelaide) and closest friend in adelaide. hence you're the VIP whom i can't leave out in this post. thanks for everything!! i'm so glad to know you and really appreciate for the many things that you've done for me.

all the best and enjoy your remaining years in adelaide..

til we meet again.. =)

since we took so few pictures together, let me add in some random pics that kinda remind me of you =)

artistic M&Ms stains on a tissue, your "favourite" mushroom pizza xD, hahndorf strawberries, panda in adelaide zoo, my australia hp number, the laundry room, the little cacat-ed lantern during mooncake festival, some "gorilla's" hairy leg compared with mine, and pool :D

bobby, perng, phillip, yeewei, my housemates, eugene, wei xue (the one who taught me how to play ping pong!!) and etc.. (i can't possibly mention everyone here aikss...)

but all and all, i'm really glad to know you guys!! :)

one of the main highlights of the year would be when my family came down to australia and visit me. had the most heart warming 10 days of my life in australia <3

second last day in adelaide...shopping! and city wandering...

i'm so gonna get a maxi dress when i get back to penang!its too expensive here..(great! now i have 2 different tones of skin colour! the burnt results from the trip to great ocean road is still there!) >.<

for the first time, i felt like the distance back to my place was sooooo short! need to slow down the pace...

also for the first and the last time, i entered the Hilton hotel..hehee..

and special thanks to ming hui, bee hooi, and the prospect gang! they really helped me out a lot, which includes packing, carrying, buying me stuff, teman me here and there, and so sooo much more! i'll see you guys soon!! huggies.. xD

and last but definitely not least,

GOODBYE Adelaide!! :')

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love,

the things you are,

the things you never want to lose.

i would say, 2009..

is really an extraordinary year for me.

i wonder what's awaiting in 2010?

No more

damn damn damn!!

i'm LITERALLY ran out of tissue now,

and my table is fulled of tissue-made wantan leftovers..

so please, please no more crying..PLEASE!!!

p/s: i just want to sleep...

puffy eyes are killing me..

1st holidays in DECEMBER

F U N !~!

I met my sister;
I met Mei Zhi;
I met YiYing;
I met Kok Eon;
I met Keant;
I met another groups of crazy fella;
I met SeeMin!

This was an ever meaningful trip so far. Fully make use of time, no rushing, met so many 'long time no see' friends!!:D

how much food i had?---i think i gain weight again.

how much shopping i did?---i got 4 clothes and tonnes of presents for others.

the golden sentence i made for the trip : ' I will show you what is medical student's stamina!'

ps: the only thing i missed is the photo..i was a bit blur and forgot to take many photos!!!!!:(

p/ps: thanks to kel and my sis..Victor sent me home that night, a guy i knew for only 2 hours.

Do you happen to know someone like this?

something to share with you guys.

i came across articles about manipulative behaviors which i found rather interesting.

It is very hard to know if one is a manipulative person. There are people who talk and act like very nice people and we cannot distinguish between their manipulative behaviors and their natural ways. People who want to manipulate others are often very nice people especially at the start. You would only come to know a manipulative person with your constant interaction.

traits:

- pretend to be incompetent, play the victim, act helpless, or admit too often that he or she is stupid.

- say “promise me” or act overly concerned.

- blame others for their problems.

- often act ignored, forgotten, hurt, wounded, unloved, or uncared for.
- act angry or throw temper tantrums.
- often act depressed or suicidal.

- constantly repeating the question or request over and over again…in slightly different ways

- if that person doesn’t get his/her way, they make you out to look or feel like the bad guy

To get their way, manipulators will often make you feel good so that they can then ask you to do something that they want.

ahem..the statements speak for themselves

so i guess i'll leave it there...

p/s: i heart Daughtry's No Surprise so so much! <3

makes me feel like learning the electric guitar only! so yeng..

Back for good

two more weeks, and i'll be back to my lovely pulau pinang! =D

hmmm. actually i'm having mixed feeling about having to go back that soon. yea, i know this is just a phase i'm going through (just like my previous stupid dilemma, but i'm really glad it's all over now, no longer linger on things that are not meant to be)

just when i started to have some really close friends here, and pooooof! suddenly, we have to part. alright alright, i know there are things called facebook, msn and phones...but still, there are some of them whom i will hardly HARDLY meet again.

september, royal adelaide show
(a few people missing here...oopss..)

p/s: my application for honours has been accepted.

but i didnt accept it.

applied just in case my dad kena lok hap choi...obviously he didn't >.<

p/p/s: Plants vs. Zombies! this game is sooooo good!!

thanks for making me spending most of my waking hours just playing you!!

The chain reaction

the australia girls choir singing christmas songs in adelaide airport.

i've loss count how many times i've been going to the airport in December alone.

friends leaving one by one...

while i'm still waiting for my turn...

most of us were tearing while he was leaving, especially when it comes to hugging and bidding goodbye at the same time

like mh said, it's like a chain reaction

when one started the crying, it followed by one and another ='(

be strong! we miss you already!

i'll definitely miss your literally HA-HA-HA-HA laughter.

p/s: his advice to guys who want to have six packs, laugh like him! use 丹田 to laugh. xD

NIghtmare of the day

As usual, i went to hospital in the morning, clerking case from the patient.

but something unusual occurred today.

The uncle wanted to kiss me...!!!

so so so disgusting to see the lips and the face!!!!!
yer...some more he was pulling me towards him!!!!
my face was only 6cm away from his lips?!!!??!?!
wahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?!!??
was kinda unable to sleep in the evening just now leh!!!!!

PLEASE LAH UNCLE!! you can be my grandpa lah!!!

yam chin!!!!!!!!

才知道...

Saw this on the net some times ago...

01.上了大学才知道，两个天天在一起的人不一定是朋友，有可能什么都不是。

02.上了大学才知道，从来不要和别人争论什么，因为那是没有结果的，无论谁对谁错。

03.上了大学才知道，手机是有事的时候用的，并不是为了交流感情。(so true la this point!)

04.上了大学才知道，真心对一个人好不一定有回报，而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重视你的。

05.上了大学才知道，很多东西是可遇而不可求的，很多东西你只能拥有一次。

06.上了大学才知道，恋爱不一定是真心的，有可能是利益关系，有可能是攀比心理。

07.上了大学才知道，原来中学老师教的是那么好，那么负责任。

08.上了大学才知道，很多时候自己遇到不开心事，千万不要渴望别人同情，大多数人会采取冷漠回敬的。那样会更让人家看不起。

09.上了大学才知道，有很多东西是不属于你的，你使劲强求会遭天遣的。

10.上了大学才知道，生活是有很多不公平的，你一定要正视，相信实力和群众的眼睛。

11.上了大学才知道，人的性格可以差异到如此之大。

12.上了大学才知道，一个人要自己对自己好，因为真正关心你的人很少，有了事他们也不一定会在你身边。所以要自己照顾自己。

13.上了大学才知道，课程会在你不经意间，拉下很多，期末考试前不一定能补回来。

14.上了大学才知道，钱用的是那么快，用钱的地方是那么多。

15.上了大学才知道，从现在开始应该把握每一个你能把握的人，放弃你留不住的人，不要因为想留住个别人而失去一群人。

16.上了大学才知道，自己一定在乎自己的自尊，因为你的自尊在别人眼里根本不算什么。

17.上了大学才知道，不要心情不好的时候对周围人发脾气，渴望他们谅解你，人家不是你的父母，现在你可以明白父母对自己多么重要。

18.上了大学才知道。即便有人对情感看的无所谓，你一定要坚信，人之间的感情，有可能会令所有东西无法超越的，但记住，只是有可能。

19.上了大学才知道，会遇到许多自己看不惯的人或事，但那与你无关，别人爱咋整随他便，别生不该生的气，不值。

20.上了大学才知道，许多曾经的人会变的让你认不出，但请留住回忆。

21.上了大学才知道，会遇到很多诱惑，无论别人怎么样，你是你，你有你的原则和底限。

22.上了大学才知道，会有人很讨厌你或者和你过不去，但是他爱怎么样就怎么样，我们要大度，

不和小人计较，但前提是你正确。

23.上了大学才知道，很多人无法理解男女之间的朋友关系，在一起就一定是恋人，不是恋人就一定不能在一起。

24.上了大学才知道，学习要刻苦，因为凭聪明就能应付大学科目的人是风毛翎角。

25.上了大学才知道，原来时间一空闲下来是那么无聊，丝毫没有中学的充实的感觉。

26.上了大学才知道，太在乎别人了往往会伤害自己。

27.上了大学才知道，对自己好的人会随着时间的流逝越来越少。

28.上了大学才知道，可以不把所有人当朋友，但千万不能把一个人当敌人，至少可以当同学。

29.上了大学才知道，玩你能玩的起的，玩不起的千万别玩，不然会输的什么都没有的。

30.上了大学才知道，快乐常常来自回忆，而痛苦常常来自于回忆与现实的差距。

31.上了大学才知道，原来上课，吃饭，上自习常常得自己一个人。

32.上了大学才知道，有很多人的想法与做法你无法理解，或是根本不知道他在想什么，千万别在那揣摩或者瞎猜，那样会让自己累，既然人家要保持神秘感那就让人家保持去啊，自己又不是占

星师。

33.上了大学才知道，每个人都是带有“地方特色”的。

34.上了大学才知道，别人请客吃饭或着自己请别人吃饭都是很平常的，甚至请一个不怎么熟的人都是有可能的

35.上了大学才知道，每个人都是认为自己的家乡最好，无论他的家乡贫穷或富裕。

p/s: i'm tired, mentally and physically...

everyone seems to start packing, i must too >.< no more excuses

Living with hope

Everyone is giving me hope...
but you never give me..!

should i continue to dream??

can i not say goodbye this time?

i do admit that i'm more to the sentimental kind of person (eventhough i might, MIGHT look tough from the outside at times..)

i tend to get all emotional when it comes to bidding goodbye.

and it's december already.

a month that i've been waiting for....

a month that friends are leaving one by one...

a month that makes me recall things...realize stuff...

it's not easy.

it's not easy to say goodbye to you when i don't even know when will we meet again.

it's not easy to hold back the emotion when everything seems unusually overwhelming at the moment.

it's not easy to bid the final goodbye, looking straight at your face without having the urge to tear...

sometimes i feel like...

leaving without saying goodbye, is actually better in some way.

saying goodbye is never an easy thing,

but you never said that you'd stay forever...

- Love Will Leave You Back

p/s: things happen for a reason.

i don't know the reason,

but you happened.

Definite HOLIDAYS!

Anyone please definite holidays for me?!

or maybe we can do some calculations first:
3 days of holidays = 72 hours
no evening class on thursday= extra 11 hours
no suitable bus available on sunday= have to spend the last 18 hours in melaka

so in total, how many hours are left for me to spend in Penang?!

65 hours!

ONLY!!!

yet, i need to spend 16 hours to travel!!!!!

what a miserable holidays?!
is tooooo short to go back home; too long if i ain't go anywhere!!

im just too tired..
how i wish when i wake up in the morning tomorrow, i can see mama's face, or hear papa's voice, or touch jiejie's hands?!

for the whole day after i came back to melaka from penang, i CAN'T BREATHE!!

Why, why now?

Only for the BOTH of you.

Enter Passwords

it has been awhile

since i last shopped >.<

damn. i'm so vain! hoho...

anyway, retail therapy never fail me! =D

hmmm...i'm waiting for boxing day, then i can shop like mad!

meanwhile, gotta save some $$ for melbourne first..hehee...

oh man...while shopping, bumped into someone i'm so not wanted to see! omg, wanna cuci mata liao... what a disgusting pimp nyuekk!

by the way, stupid weather forecast! it's getting more and more inaccurate, stated it would rain...but never rain...

but you can't fool me, you fooled jeremy! ahaha!

yay! finally i've been to roseworthy...one of the placesss i wanted to go before i leave. so..roseworthy, checked =D it was supposed to be today, but then the friend who supposed to bring me there suddenly has his flight booked. so it was a kinda rush plan, so only got to reach there around evening, can't take much pictures as it was getting dark...sayangnya! if not i could even go touch the pigs or horse riding...=(

the journey took about 50mins by train...cooked our own dinner at the student dining area where we curi most of the materials from some roseworthy students hahaha..so evil xD

only reached back to city during midnight...then the guys wanna drink after that. since one of them leaving soon, so i just decided to join la since i've nothing better to do also. speaking of which, that night was really unlucky, almost every pub was closed. walked til the legs also pain...so we decided to buy a botol of whatever it is, something whisky and had it in the house.

and it was the first time in adelaide i lepak until 5ish...@.@

p/s: recently got to know some insider news that makes me feel very 痛快...

lei dou yao gam yat la....muahahaha! 真是大快人心! =D

aiks....this post is so jumbled up..

but anyway, i must appreciate my time left here!

til then..

Leaving

River Torrens.

突然，很不想离开这里

突然，很不舍得

突然，心情有很大的起伏

又有谁能明白？

心情真的很难受..

好久没那么哭过了，好久好久...

Its so true......haiz....

每個女孩身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友你們可能相愛過

，你們也可能喜歡著彼此，但是，為了什麼原因你們沒能在一起？

也許他為了朋友之間的義氣，不能追你。
也許為了顧及家人的意見，你們沒有在一起。
也許為了出國深造，他沒有要你等他。
也許你們相遇太早，還不懂得珍惜對方。
也許你們相遇太晚，你們身邊已經有了另一個人。
也許你回頭太遲，對方已不再等待。
也許你們彼此在捉摸對方的心，而遲遲無法跨出界線。

不過即使你們沒在一起，你們還是保持了朋友的關係。
但是你們心底清楚，對這個人，你比朋友還多了一份關心。

即使不能跟他名正言順的牽著手逛街，你們還是可以做無所不談的朋友。

他有喜歡的人，你口頭上會幫他追，心裏卻不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困難時，你會盡你所能的幫他，不會計較誰又欠了誰。

男女朋友吃醋了，你會安撫他們說你和他只是朋友，但你心中會有那麼一絲的不確定。

每個人這輩子，心中都有過這麼一個特別的朋友，很矛盾的行為。

一開始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然發現這樣最好。你寧願這樣關心他，總好過你們在一起而有天會分手。

你寧願做他的朋友，彼此不會吃醋，才可以真的無所不談。

特別是這樣，你還是知道，他永遠會關心你的。

做不成男女朋友，當他那個特別的朋友，有什麼不好呢？你心中的這個特別的朋友...?

是誰呢？

很多的感情，都因為一廂情願，最後連朋友都當不成了。常常覺得惋惜，可惜一些本來很好的友情。

最後卻因為對方的一句喜歡你，如果你沒有反應，這一段友情似乎也難以維持下去，這也難怪有些人會因此不肯踏出這一步。
因為這就像是一場賭注，表白了之後不是成了男女朋友，要不就連朋友都當不成了。

有些事不是你能預料的，或許對方不在意，你們還可以是朋友，但卻已經不如從前的好.



Let's listen to this---love it recently...

Yoga

i know i know...i'm relatively very outdated =P

i tend to get addicted to songs (especially chinese songs) which others have been listening months or even years ago...

this time, i'm so hooked on this one!

伯乐 by Yoga Lin 林宥嘉 =D

actually i don't really like him as a singer, cuz his facial expression (especially the mouth) looks weird when he sings!

but this song is really nice, and i really like the lyrics too! do you know the composer is a malaysian? xD

HAHAHAHA! this mv kinda reminds me of js and kev, they used to ask me to rate others too! really siao! sometimes we even exchanged pics of others in msn just for rating... lol so wuliao..

i still remember 1.5! xDD

爱你的那一个 伤你的那一个

谁才是你爱情中的伯乐

放弃了这一个 然后等待著下一个

最后哪一个最让你舍不得

感谢不能让别人来说

你给过我的　他们是做不到的

那时候的幸福是真的　虽然过去了

我们也都经历了

释怀教育著仇恨　和平劝著天下人

故事发生了便住下了　不管好的坏的

你让我成长了　就算是痛得值得

爱你的那一个　伤你的那一个

谁才是你爱情中的伯乐

放弃了这一个　然后等待著下一个

一个个过客过得快不快乐

爱你的那一个　伤你的那一个

谁才是你爱情中的伯乐

放弃了这一个　然后等待著下一个

别太多过客祝你早日快乐

爱你的那一个　伤你的那一个

谁才是你爱情中的伯乐

放弃了这一个　然后等待著下一个

一个个过客过得快不快乐

离开时别忘了　看看眼前的人

流泪记住了　还是微笑祝福著

can't help listen to this song over and over again while doing revision...

so gonna play this someday ;)

p/s: STAY FOCUS! 5 more days to freedom.

and bye bachelor degree! =D

places i'm planning to go, things i'm planning to do...stay out of my mind just for these few days will y'all? ;)

Mad.

after so long, i still cannot get enough of this.

Ne-yo's song + the whole choreograph = perfect! xD

ohh..and the last part when the both of them doing the "wave" thingy...so nice laa!

"girl, i don't wanna go to bed mad at you..

and i don't want you to go to bed mad at me~"

btw, i'm waiting...waiting....and waiting...

for my first paper (while others already started theirs and one of my friends even finished his ALREADY! urgh...) oh well, looking on the bright side, i've more time to slack study! =S

hmm, must start practising to sleep and wake up early dee. MUST!

Why do i feel like this?

why do i feel like a pregnant lady whenever exams are near?

i have cravings for certain food.

i experience dizziness out of nowhere.

i literally feel like puking when i stare at the notes/past year papers for a period of time

pain here pain there...

not to mention mood swing and get pissed at petty stuff.

urgh!

2 more weeks man, 2 more weeks..

please, please hang in there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

self reminder: stop thinking nonsense and other craps, just focus on your bloody lecture notes and those past year papers.

by the way, it's kinda pathetic that nowadays the person who makes me laugh the most is a fictional character.

and he's none other than SHELDON COOPER!

seriously i'm sooooo into him right now =D

whenever i feel like i can't take it anymore...

the big bang theory is my saviour!

Expectations vs Outcomes

Everyone understands that the higher an expectation, the more the disappointment.
in addition to that, an expectation also does affect the outcome of an event.
the more you expect, the more stressful your life will be.
but, is a stressful life always ended up with a bad outcome?
it depends~~

sometimes, i think that the tension is actually why i can do as expected..and at most of the time, i enjoy the outcome~
people may think that its unnecessary to aim so high,
but i have just realized that i don't really mind how much the stress i experienced as long as i have what i expected.
as long as the outcome is satisfactory, i don't mind how tough the process is.

for this moment, these are what i realized.

maybe im just too rebellious..

UNFAIR

things are always unfair, or we always make things unfair.
i'm sorry for not playing fair, and i'm sorry for the unfair-ness

it's always the best solution to stay where we are when you don't wanna things to change

sadly, things keep changing as we make them change

I do not expect you to understand and i dun really hope you do

there's always things that keep us from moving forward

there's always things that keep us struggle for so long that we don't even remember what was it already

there's always things that keep us from changing to the bad and to the good

there's always things that keep us alert in the future

there's always things that keep us afraid all the time

there's always things that keep us sad after the sunny bright day



but dear friend, i wish we can make things change, to the better

no matter what is it



PEACE : )

Smile^^

Life is short
Break the rules
Forgive quickly
Kiss passionately, Love truly
Laugh constantly
And never stop smiling
No matter how strange life is
Life is not always the party we expected to be
But as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful

:)

I bid you goodbye

it has been 2 years plus since we officially started our relationship.

it was quite a tough journey then..

as i didn't really understand you well,

and we also didn't have much in common..

you thought i could read your mind, but you were being too ambiguous.

there were times when you made me stayed up all night, just to spend time with you...

tried to give up though i could't imagine how my future would be without you..

i'd probably feel like a dumbass.

you're so important to me.

but now, it's time to move on.

we're done!

no more biochemistry lectures,

no more biochemistry tutorials,

no more biochemistry pracs,

no more biochemistry presentations and assignments! =D

but i won't forget our last date, set on 18th of nov..

that's the time where you'll find out how much i had LOVED you xD

p/s: finally i've watched "Closer", a movie which recommended by a friend years ago (yes, years ago!)...and yea, Jude Law is still as hot as usual =P

the movie tagline caught my attention anyway

"if you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking"

hmm..interesting...

Dan: You think love is simple. You think the heart is like a diagram.
Larry: Have you ever seen a human heart? It looks like a fist, wrapped in blood!

Larry: You don't know the first thing about love, because you don't understand compromise.

true.

I thought ...

note: This post is not pin-pointing may and sue as well!!

I thought we're kinda friend ...
I thoguht i've been a good friend ...
I thoguht you understand ...
I thought i've knew ...
I thought i was right ...
I thoguht i've changed ...
I thought i've learnt ...
I thoguht we grew better ...
I thoguht we're both mature ...
I thought you're good enough ...
I thought i'm kinda an important friend to you ...
I thought i've done enough for being a friend ...
I thought compromis-ation involves two party ...

Apparently there is always some spaces for us to grow
but i find myself coping with it better this round: )

YET i always playing the role who compromises things
is it a good thing or a bad one?

Sometimes compromise making me weak, and it rides against my will
though my heart tells me i am WRONG, so wrong everytime when i confront myself

so we keep on learning ...
and I pray we all learn from our mistakes : )
mistakes are essential anyway
and there's always disagreement between us, i mean all of us
while comprehension makes the heart smiles~