Year end post~

Its going to the end for 2009; yet im not ready for 2010!!
i should be more responsible and more hardworking and more mature from 2010 onwards! hopefully i can make it! I will try for sure..but maybe india's life was too bored and i just can't stop or control myself to have fun in Malaysia!! Melacca is a sienzz place if compared to KL　or penang~

I will be leaving to penang tonight at 10pm.
Yeah..i will be spending my time in the bus and wish those san hmm sek cak punya orang happy new year in the bus later. How many people will stay awake at that moment later?
No idea..simply no idea..!

obviously, im 'emo' again. I was very excited and happy to go back until 1 hour ago.
i wish she never remind me or said those things to me just now!
if you never said that i treat you nice,i wouldn't be so sad now....
if you never said you want to go out, i wouldn't plan, i wouldn't expect anything tonight and i will not be so down now!
Perhaps im too greedy...perhaps, im always surrounded by friends..perhaps, i always wish that people will at least treat me the same as how i treat them.. perhaps, i had overestimated myself--im still not get used to be left behind by others!!
haiz... i know i shouldn't be selfish, but do you know that i feel like crying when i sms you saying its fine,some more have to be in a 'happy' tone??

its not easy to be generous, its not easy be a polite lady, its not easy tolerate everybody especially the closed one, its not easy to manage relationship with others!! really...is the toughest things i ever met!

How i wish i can go back to the time when i can voice out everyhting to everyone?! either to my best friend or just a passed by one???
why is it so difficult to keep everything to myself now??
why must everyone be so polite to others?!
why am i looked so strong?!
for a same situation, no one will ever bother me..no one will ever think that i can't overcome or solve it!!! When is these all insane things started?!
HECK!!!!!

when i tend to be mysterious, someone taught me to SHARE~
when i learn to share, people said i never stopped talking!
when i stop talking, someone said im angry~
SO?!


心碎了无痕……一点儿也没错…………
掩饰得越好，越少人发现你的存在…………
迟在，不会有人知道，不会有人在意，你在想什么，做什么…………

Flashback *updated

Seeing that i'll be leaving adelaide very soon, i think i'll just post a few entries (or i might combine all at one, haha, laziness =P) this post is to summarize briefly about my life in australia. it's probably my last post from adelaide...and hopefully i can finish it on time i've finished it!

the who, what, when

too many stuff to add, hence they'll not be in chronological order =P

she was one of my few closest friends in adelaide.

we took biochemistry for both semester and she was my lab partner.

my partner in crime, camwhore buddy and clubbing kaki.

also my only female pool opponent and my motivation during exam period.

and probably the only one who appreciates my typical asian eyes =.=

how i wish i'm as ambitious and determined as you >.<

anyway. hope to see you in penang when you're coming here in jan (hopefully! cuz you said you would come to visit me! bluek!)

a few of events/outings that we attended together: MLS pubcrawl, international student farewell, biochem dinner, red square, royal adelaide show, uni of adelaide, HQ and my place (cooking together) xD i wont forget how we rushed to finish our poster for presentation just a day before too =P

the group i usually hang out with xD can never get a complete group pic...aiks..

it's very hard to have everyone gather together as most of us stay in different suburbs, and taking different subjects..etc..

more than half of them went back already.. anyway,til we meet again for our peninsular malaysia trip =D

my 老友记 Jeremy's birthday! first time tried kangaroo meat, though only a bit >.<

first time went windy point to admire the night view of adelaide xD

another birthday celebration. and cat touching session! xD

siew pei!! the eldest among ALL of us.. xD

good in cooking and baking, always asked me to eat healthily...seeing that i always skipped meal during the first semester. how nice if i really have an elder sis like her! always suggested us (new) places to makan..maybe my sudden gained of weight was partly due to her =P

left adelaide after graduated during july.. :(

p/s: i still remember that bear^^

sai lou, ah tim.

who went through a rather "major" makeover earlier this year haha! and at the moment proudly possessed his six packs xD

the karaoke king and laughing champion (always makes me distracted with his trademark laughter during lab session >.<) one of the very few rare one whom i feel totally comfortable with here...

i always LOL at our pics! especially those whacky ones... =D

i'm soooo glad that you were here with me in adelaide, besides Jeremy and Jialin, you are actually the one that i know the longest in adelaide. anyway, we'll be seeing each other again real soooooon! ♥

Big-D. the only one that knows my brother too! xD really admire his passion in science, always can see him reading journals (even on the bus!) and thanks heaps for the lovely fusion xmas dinner! 1,2,3 super smile (where's your ultra smile?)=D

the one who makes me addicted to playing poker, and gamble for the first time (and won! hehee...) in adelaide >.<

Denise :D

hang out with her so often during the first semester until i really lost count already. my genetics bioinformatic partner! how did we ever get through those hideous bioinfo session? >.<

don't know since when, we had this routine of going marketing together after our genetics class on friday during the first semester.

both of us came out with nicknames for others...such as the notorious yong sui! nyuek!

was really bu she de her when she went back for good back in august..at the beginning of my 2nd semester was really not used to not having her around as we used to go to uni together, and went home together too.

zhong kar yan no.2 =D

definitely one of the leng luis in the group. my biotech groupmate, we worked on our assignments together and blur together too =P

she might seem tiny, but you don't wanna mess with her cuz she knows judo! so don't judge a book by its cover..hehe! admirers 多到不行!

and one of her many weird hobbies is to poke sai lou's six packs =P

officially the youngest of all. even younger than sai lou.

nick name "aiks..." hahaha! the male poser in the group, always able to come out with spontaneous whacky poses whenever you flash the camera at him! and the only one with plenty jackets that he could change each one everyday for a week =P

the earliest one to go back malaysia. huhu...goodluck in your last semester next year!

my lesbo partner bee ai jie..

the one who helped me to cut and colour my hair...the hairdresser in the group..she's freaking good at changing guy's hairstyle. really can make an average looking guy into a really handsome + yeng one! serious!

also my revision buddy during exam period, the intensive one =P

the one who liked to tease my penangite's slang..

also the most sporty one, basketball, badminton, pingpong..etc...i miss playing with you already! if everything goes smoothly, i shall see you in a month's time =D

Josh!! the one who lives the closest to me =D

i could just walk a few steps to reach his place and knock on his room's window! sometimes it saved the need of sms-ing or calling him xP a must-have company for clubbing, he can protect you! seeing his size lol...practises kickboxing leh >.<>

had a few total random outings together, such as hungry jacks in the middle of the night after revision, minum session til the early morning with perng, lasi and bobby..etc..

the only one who called me "Ju Jian" lol, my father sometimes calls me that too!

and one more thing, don't push yourself soooo hard during gyming! hope your back is getting better after the operation.

hmm, when can i see you again Josh?!?

GML, is what we like to call her xD

personally i think she has the nicest voice among all of us..can become a radio DJ already hehe...a very sweet and innocent girl indeed! and she's still single yay!

such innocent girl is really hard to come by these days...hmm, must appreciate! =D

and i miss sleepovers in your room already...sigh...

grace and pw.

grace is the mother of da house! hahaha! and my fondest memory with her would be the eyebrow plucking session! i still remember it was so random and spontaneous that she asked me lay on the bed and started the torturing and yet funny experience when i went over their place for sleepover. thanks for making my thick thick eyebrows now looks like a real lady lol...and making me looks slightly prettier ahaha! xD as for pw, she's like my walking mandarin dictionary cuz her mandarin is so powerful that whenever i don't understand any chinese character i would go ask her =D

a super totoro fan, it's so easy that for her birthday you don't need to think but just get her anything related to totoro LOL!

not to forget about the girls who indirectly helped in increasing my alcohol tolerance.

i didn't really know how to drink, besides some beer before i came to adelaide. but now, bring those hard liquor/wine on babeh! hahaha :p

i'm the only one (most probably) not coming back next year...how sad!

congratz caroline for getting scholarship for to continue her PhD, amrita and anne for getting places in genetics honours :D

oh no.. i didnt realise until i tried to dig out our pictures: though we spent quite a significant amount of time together, we didnt take much pictures together did we? >.<

anyway, you're my first official (since the first day i touched down adelaide) and closest friend in adelaide. hence you're the VIP whom i can't leave out in this post. thanks for everything!! i'm so glad to know you and really appreciate for the many things that you've done for me.

all the best and enjoy your remaining years in adelaide..

til we meet again.. =)

since we took so few pictures together, let me add in some random pics that kinda remind me of you =)

artistic M&Ms stains on a tissue, your "favourite" mushroom pizza xD, hahndorf strawberries, panda in adelaide zoo, my australia hp number, the laundry room, the little cacat-ed lantern during mooncake festival, some "gorilla's" hairy leg compared with mine, and pool :D

bobby, perng, phillip, yeewei, my housemates, eugene, wei xue (the one who taught me how to play ping pong!!) and etc.. (i can't possibly mention everyone here aikss...)

but all and all, i'm really glad to know you guys!! :)

one of the main highlights of the year would be when my family came down to australia and visit me. had the most heart warming 10 days of my life in australia <3

second last day in adelaide...shopping! and city wandering...

i'm so gonna get a maxi dress when i get back to penang!its too expensive here..(great! now i have 2 different tones of skin colour! the burnt results from the trip to great ocean road is still there!) >.<

for the first time, i felt like the distance back to my place was sooooo short! need to slow down the pace...

also for the first and the last time, i entered the Hilton hotel..hehee..

and special thanks to ming hui, bee hooi, and the prospect gang! they really helped me out a lot, which includes packing, carrying, buying me stuff, teman me here and there, and so sooo much more! i'll see you guys soon!! huggies.. xD

and last but definitely not least,

GOODBYE Adelaide!! :')

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love,

the things you are,

the things you never want to lose.

i would say, 2009..

is really an extraordinary year for me.

i wonder what's awaiting in 2010?

No more

damn damn damn!!

i'm LITERALLY ran out of tissue now,

and my table is fulled of tissue-made wantan leftovers..

so please, please no more crying..PLEASE!!!

p/s: i just want to sleep...

puffy eyes are killing me..

1st holidays in DECEMBER

F U N !~!

I met my sister;
I met Mei Zhi;
I met YiYing;
I met Kok Eon;
I met Keant;
I met another groups of crazy fella;
I met SeeMin!

This was an ever meaningful trip so far. Fully make use of time, no rushing, met so many 'long time no see' friends!!:D

how much food i had?---i think i gain weight again.

how much shopping i did?---i got 4 clothes and tonnes of presents for others.

the golden sentence i made for the trip : ' I will show you what is medical student's stamina!'

ps: the only thing i missed is the photo..i was a bit blur and forgot to take many photos!!!!!:(

p/ps: thanks to kel and my sis..Victor sent me home that night, a guy i knew for only 2 hours.

Do you happen to know someone like this?

something to share with you guys.

i came across articles about manipulative behaviors which i found rather interesting.

It is very hard to know if one is a manipulative person. There are people who talk and act like very nice people and we cannot distinguish between their manipulative behaviors and their natural ways. People who want to manipulate others are often very nice people especially at the start. You would only come to know a manipulative person with your constant interaction.

traits:

- pretend to be incompetent, play the victim, act helpless, or admit too often that he or she is stupid.

- say “promise me” or act overly concerned.

- blame others for their problems.

- often act ignored, forgotten, hurt, wounded, unloved, or uncared for.
- act angry or throw temper tantrums.
- often act depressed or suicidal.

- constantly repeating the question or request over and over again…in slightly different ways

- if that person doesn’t get his/her way, they make you out to look or feel like the bad guy

To get their way, manipulators will often make you feel good so that they can then ask you to do something that they want.

ahem..the statements speak for themselves

so i guess i'll leave it there...

p/s: i heart Daughtry's No Surprise so so much! <3

makes me feel like learning the electric guitar only! so yeng..

Back for good

two more weeks, and i'll be back to my lovely pulau pinang! =D

hmmm. actually i'm having mixed feeling about having to go back that soon. yea, i know this is just a phase i'm going through (just like my previous stupid dilemma, but i'm really glad it's all over now, no longer linger on things that are not meant to be)

just when i started to have some really close friends here, and pooooof! suddenly, we have to part. alright alright, i know there are things called facebook, msn and phones...but still, there are some of them whom i will hardly HARDLY meet again.

september, royal adelaide show
(a few people missing here...oopss..)

p/s: my application for honours has been accepted.

but i didnt accept it.

applied just in case my dad kena lok hap choi...obviously he didn't >.<

p/p/s: Plants vs. Zombies! this game is sooooo good!!

thanks for making me spending most of my waking hours just playing you!!

The chain reaction

the australia girls choir singing christmas songs in adelaide airport.

i've loss count how many times i've been going to the airport in December alone.

friends leaving one by one...

while i'm still waiting for my turn...

most of us were tearing while he was leaving, especially when it comes to hugging and bidding goodbye at the same time

like mh said, it's like a chain reaction

when one started the crying, it followed by one and another ='(

be strong! we miss you already!

i'll definitely miss your literally HA-HA-HA-HA laughter.

p/s: his advice to guys who want to have six packs, laugh like him! use 丹田 to laugh. xD

NIghtmare of the day

As usual, i went to hospital in the morning, clerking case from the patient.

but something unusual occurred today.

The uncle wanted to kiss me...!!!

so so so disgusting to see the lips and the face!!!!!
yer...some more he was pulling me towards him!!!!
my face was only 6cm away from his lips?!!!??!?!
wahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?!!??
was kinda unable to sleep in the evening just now leh!!!!!

PLEASE LAH UNCLE!! you can be my grandpa lah!!!

yam chin!!!!!!!!

才知道...

Saw this on the net some times ago...

01.上了大学才知道，两个天天在一起的人不一定是朋友，有可能什么都不是。

02.上了大学才知道，从来不要和别人争论什么，因为那是没有结果的，无论谁对谁错。

03.上了大学才知道，手机是有事的时候用的，并不是为了交流感情。(so true la this point!)

04.上了大学才知道，真心对一个人好不一定有回报，而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重视你的。

05.上了大学才知道，很多东西是可遇而不可求的，很多东西你只能拥有一次。

06.上了大学才知道，恋爱不一定是真心的，有可能是利益关系，有可能是攀比心理。

07.上了大学才知道，原来中学老师教的是那么好，那么负责任。

08.上了大学才知道，很多时候自己遇到不开心事，千万不要渴望别人同情，大多数人会采取冷漠回敬的。那样会更让人家看不起。

09.上了大学才知道，有很多东西是不属于你的，你使劲强求会遭天遣的。

10.上了大学才知道，生活是有很多不公平的，你一定要正视，相信实力和群众的眼睛。

11.上了大学才知道，人的性格可以差异到如此之大。

12.上了大学才知道，一个人要自己对自己好，因为真正关心你的人很少，有了事他们也不一定会在你身边。所以要自己照顾自己。

13.上了大学才知道，课程会在你不经意间，拉下很多，期末考试前不一定能补回来。

14.上了大学才知道，钱用的是那么快，用钱的地方是那么多。

15.上了大学才知道，从现在开始应该把握每一个你能把握的人，放弃你留不住的人，不要因为想留住个别人而失去一群人。

16.上了大学才知道，自己一定在乎自己的自尊，因为你的自尊在别人眼里根本不算什么。

17.上了大学才知道，不要心情不好的时候对周围人发脾气，渴望他们谅解你，人家不是你的父母，现在你可以明白父母对自己多么重要。

18.上了大学才知道。即便有人对情感看的无所谓，你一定要坚信，人之间的感情，有可能会令所有东西无法超越的，但记住，只是有可能。

19.上了大学才知道，会遇到许多自己看不惯的人或事，但那与你无关，别人爱咋整随他便，别生不该生的气，不值。

20.上了大学才知道，许多曾经的人会变的让你认不出，但请留住回忆。

21.上了大学才知道，会遇到很多诱惑，无论别人怎么样，你是你，你有你的原则和底限。

22.上了大学才知道，会有人很讨厌你或者和你过不去，但是他爱怎么样就怎么样，我们要大度，

不和小人计较，但前提是你正确。

23.上了大学才知道，很多人无法理解男女之间的朋友关系，在一起就一定是恋人，不是恋人就一定不能在一起。

24.上了大学才知道，学习要刻苦，因为凭聪明就能应付大学科目的人是风毛翎角。

25.上了大学才知道，原来时间一空闲下来是那么无聊，丝毫没有中学的充实的感觉。

26.上了大学才知道，太在乎别人了往往会伤害自己。

27.上了大学才知道，对自己好的人会随着时间的流逝越来越少。

28.上了大学才知道，可以不把所有人当朋友，但千万不能把一个人当敌人，至少可以当同学。

29.上了大学才知道，玩你能玩的起的，玩不起的千万别玩，不然会输的什么都没有的。

30.上了大学才知道，快乐常常来自回忆，而痛苦常常来自于回忆与现实的差距。

31.上了大学才知道，原来上课，吃饭，上自习常常得自己一个人。

32.上了大学才知道，有很多人的想法与做法你无法理解，或是根本不知道他在想什么，千万别在那揣摩或者瞎猜，那样会让自己累，既然人家要保持神秘感那就让人家保持去啊，自己又不是占

星师。

33.上了大学才知道，每个人都是带有“地方特色”的。

34.上了大学才知道，别人请客吃饭或着自己请别人吃饭都是很平常的，甚至请一个不怎么熟的人都是有可能的

35.上了大学才知道，每个人都是认为自己的家乡最好，无论他的家乡贫穷或富裕。

p/s: i'm tired, mentally and physically...

everyone seems to start packing, i must too >.< no more excuses

Living with hope

Everyone is giving me hope...
but you never give me..!

should i continue to dream??

can i not say goodbye this time?

i do admit that i'm more to the sentimental kind of person (eventhough i might, MIGHT look tough from the outside at times..)

i tend to get all emotional when it comes to bidding goodbye.

and it's december already.

a month that i've been waiting for....

a month that friends are leaving one by one...

a month that makes me recall things...realize stuff...

it's not easy.

it's not easy to say goodbye to you when i don't even know when will we meet again.

it's not easy to hold back the emotion when everything seems unusually overwhelming at the moment.

it's not easy to bid the final goodbye, looking straight at your face without having the urge to tear...

sometimes i feel like...

leaving without saying goodbye, is actually better in some way.

saying goodbye is never an easy thing,

but you never said that you'd stay forever...

- Love Will Leave You Back

p/s: things happen for a reason.

i don't know the reason,

but you happened.