It seems that my life in 2008 is just filled with endless examinations...
Uni exam in the beginning of the year; preparing for uni exam at the moment im writing this post...
but i should say its totally different from 2007~
2007---its filled with tears, sadness, helpless, unconfident, betraying, shameful.......
but 2008, i can adapt better to manipal already..
things are under my control again...i shall never forget when i lost control on myself and my life and when i have them back again!
i can handle most of the things more confident now...
im 20...not 1_ anymore...not teen...
my last new year in india...(but nothing special is going to be done..not even countdown!:X)
overall, im HAPPY! Contented!
HAPPY, isn't it more than enough??
2008 is coming to an end, very soon.
so how would i sum up my journey throughout this year?
hmm, i'd put it into 2 parts, the first half year and the second half.
the first half was a moderate one, i was still in college doing my 2nd year, life was pretty much predictable for me as everything seemed arranged and well planned. that's why i can't really remember the details for the first half.
however, the second half was totally the opposite of the first.
things went up, and down drastically. unpredictable and exciting.
i've finished my 2nd year (finally~) and then it was the uni application thingy which nearly drove me up the walls.
something came to my life once again.
i went through a couple of emotional roller coaster rides. blind-folded. My tear glands got a lil over active for this second half too.
i've gained
i've learned, and still learning
i've lost
i've been there, done that
choices were made, and doubts surfaced
so i'll leave the rest for its own.
now, what's next?
oh ya, happy 2009 in advance! =)
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
I HAVE JUST CAME BACK FROM bbq PARTY ...:D:D:D
LOL.....FAT FAT MAY...
ps: i fell for christmas pipes in 2008~^^
disappoint: fail to be or do something as good or interesting etc as was hoped for or desired or expected by somebody
disappointed: sad or dissatisfied because one/somebody has failed, some desired event has not happened, etc
I think i'm jinxed or something.
Everytime i plan or up to something, something special (which i don't get to do often) usually i'll picture the whole process and all those possible outcomes. positive outcomes.
I would imagine a lot of scenes that would go my way. and i HOPE it'd better go according my way.
but the fact is most probably things WON'T go my way at all!
worse still, it ends up the worst way i could ever imagine.
why ar? why?
for example, if you've already packed your stuff and all and ready to go travel, let's say..to europe. and you've been anticipating it for weeks...
but at the very last minute you notice that you've lost your passport, how?!
*phhufff* suddenly you feel like you're being zapped into the cruel reality.. ouch!
the frustration, the disappointment and perhaps slight anger...
what can you do to make things better?
of course i'm not facing the exact situation as i've mentioned, but something that also results in DISAPPOINTMENT, frustration and slight anger.
too many disappointments. i don't know how much and how long i could handle this anymore. *sigh*
we were discussing what to do on Xmas..
do you know that my all time favourite Christmas song is "Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas"???
Merry Christmas in advance people!!!
a "fairy" in pyjamas lol...let me grant you one wish =P
super duper love this song right now!
just downloaded for 1 day and i've already listened for over 100 times.
and strangely,
i can relate to this song in some way.
冲啊!
Friend N Fellow from Germany
Ray Harris & The Fusion Experience from UK
Tran Manh Tuan Band from Vietnam
was trying the smile detection thingy, hence the forced smile :D :D
Andy Peterson Inc from Msia
ooops! miss out 1 more person, and she is...
jiasiew! how come she becomes darker nowadays?
p/s: saw siau shan just before i wanted to pay for the parking fee...jiasiew couldnt recognise her lol...
酒矸倘卖无
多么熟悉的声音 陪我多少年风和雨
从来不需要想起 永远也不会忘记
没有天 那有地 没有地 那有家
没有家 那有你 没有你 那有我
假如你不曾养育我 给我温暖的生活
假如你不曾保护我 我的命运将会是什么
是你抚养我长大 陪我说第一句话
是你给我一个家 让我与你共同拥有它
虽然你不能开口说一句话
却更能明白人世间的黑白与真假
虽然你不会表达你的真情
却付出了热忱的生命
远处传来你多么熟悉的声音
让我想起你多么慈祥的心灵
什么时候你再回到我身旁
让我再和你一起唱
酒干倘卖无酒干倘卖无
酒干倘卖无酒干倘卖无
This is an old movie song~
but i think none of us will ever forget this song though we might not know who are the actors and actress...
i don't know why but i always recalled the lyrics when im free, tensed, happy or down.
no one should deny that it has a very meaningful lyrics!every word is worth for you to remember in you mind!~
Certainly, it always makes cool down my emotion and appreciate whatever people had done for me and what im having now~every effort, all the love which parents would give to their children is revealed in the lyrics. The world is never so evil and difficult because no matter how tough is it, they had built a home for me physically and mentally, to stay, to run-away, to feel their warmness, to have their love, and become the luckiest person again-- I feel so thankful~!!~
they might not always tell you how much they love you;
they might do something that will make you sad or angry;
they might not tell you that they are proud of you;
they might not ask you to be the top though they hope that you will succeed in your field
BUT,
do you know that they are upset when they couldn't fullfil your dreams?
do you know how complicated is their feeling when they realized you have grown up and can live independently without their protect and help?
do you know that its so difficult for them to make the decision to let you leave?
do you know that they miss you so much when you are not around?
do you know the only wish they have after you are borned is that you are happy,safe and healthy?
do you know they were once not belief on any religion but they are praying nowadays, hoping that you are protected and guarded by GOD?
do you know how much they scare to have a gap between you and them?
know or don't know?
know..but
what can we do in return?
didn't you realize that they actually leave nothing for us to do for them?
as they never want themselves to trouble us..
isn't it time for us to think about what can we do for them and
concern about them before they do??
they had done for us, why can't we?^^
Dedicated to all of us who had left the home for our future,our dreams;
who is going to leave...
Cheers...:)
ps: i feel so guilty while typing it..because i stayed awake until 4 to read...novel..!!! wasn't so gut lat during exam pun....
ao ye, called what in eng?:s
Disease: Exam Fever
Definition: A condition with unexplained emotional and mental disturbances during exam period.
Aetiology: Exam , especially those that take very long duration and final exam
Predisposing Factors:
a) Students (especially at higher level)
b) Difficult courses (especially those which require plenty of time to study)
c) Multiple subjects
d) Crazy lecturer that like to give troubles to students~
Pathogenesis:
During exam week or month, patient will realize that they have tonnes of points and notes to study. They will be shocked that they are lack of time to study!! Therefore, for the first few days, they will concentrate and try to finish as much syllabus as possible. After that, they will feel tired and helpless as they don't have enough sleep and they always feel sleepy while studying! Next, they will fed up and lose control on their emotion! Then, they will start to skip topics and spot for the possible questions can be asked in exam.
Confidence comes back!!!
but, exam starts~~
Usually, only the first paper is able to be completely covered before exam. So, if the first paper is easy, patient may think that they can spot the questions correctly and take it easily. Suppose the paper is extremely hard, the patient will have triple stress for the following paper as they are not prepared well!! The first thing patient will do is cut down the sleeping time and eating time. This resulting the tiring body exhausted..and improper diet weakens body defence. So, patient is prone for infection and other disorders. As patient does not have enough time to rest, the condition will worsen until the exam finish.
Clinical Features:
Stress Ulcer, Fever (may be fastidious), headache, myalgia, excess eating, diarrhea, abdominal pain, confusion, disorientation, emotional disturbance, slow reaction time, insomnia, restlessness, tiredness, weakness, flu, sorethroat, always feel like falling sick, negative thinking, chest pain, breathlessness
Complications:
A F in the result slip, nutritional imbalance, impaired immune system, Stress, mental torture, madness
Treatment:
symptomatic treatment, proper diet and rest well.
Graduated or give up!
Risks ahead:
After getting used to the normal life, its even more difficult to force yourselve to study for the next exam; espcially in cutting down the sleeping time!
Prevention:
study before the exam--constant study (but its usually not applicable in playful patient)
Give more comment to the lecturer so that they will give a simplier paper!
No 'vaccine' til you graduate~
By--May Ow~~
