ATTENTION!!!!

I will be going to Kl on 2nd september during my vacation~~
KL people....beware about this..
penangist..whoever want to go ....must arrange lo...
i will be going with my indian's friend and most probably i will go to BUKIT TINGGI...
and of course the most important thing is that 2nd sep is my dear kel's birthday...
so....:D:D:D:D

oh ya...
i will disappear again until i go back...
because my wireless account have no credit already...
but i will borrow my roomate;s laptop to online or use the library's pc...

so....
see ya!
?^^

Love,
May^^

Must Say Goodbye

Release me, I know the only way

to reach me, that is the way that it should be

so free me from all your memories

I know we must say goodbye

We must goodbye

If you belong in this world

then i know we'll take the step to every road

now alone, i realize you're far ahead

without knowing you were there still in my heart

I know we must say goodbye

We must goodbye

Release me, I know the only way
to reach me, that is the way that it should be
so free me from all your memories
I know we must say goodbye
We must goodbye

Can't we belong in this world

that i'm sure you'd take me to your every road

just one thing, that realizing you were there

without knowing you were there still in your heart

I know we must say goodbye

We must say goodbye

I know we must say goodbye

must we say goodbye...?

Lost

Trust.

Confidence.

Faith.

Perseverance.

Belief.

Compromise.

Hope.

Endurance.

where were you when i needed you the most?

COMPARISON

Weekends in MALAYSIA when there is no exam coming up~
1) sleep until afternoon? no breakfast...straight away eat lunch and goes back to sleep again during normal physiological phenomenon...
2) family day...go out for dinner and shopping...chit chat with family...movie in crowded gsc..having popcorn and soft drinks....
3) online,playing games, reading story books watching tv with family...
4) cook with your mum...do all sort of house works...
5) go to temple and pray...
6) for me...caligraphy class...
7) SLEEP WITHOUT ALARM CLOCKS!!!!!!
8) Exercise is a sport~

WEEKENDS in Manipal, INDIA when there is not exam coming up~
1) dunno whether you should online, watch drama, sleep or studying?
waste half the time to think what you should do...
if study...cannot concentrate and the progress will be superb slow which finally you will bore yourself!!
if online, watch drama or movies... you will be thinking when you should stop watching and do something should be done as a medical student in MMMC....
enjoy without worrying? it will NEVER happens!!!!
if sleep... well...alarm clock has to be set...if sleep for too long...headache and you will realize that you had not done many things and will stress up...
sleep for a while...
err.... never happen to me now....because you won't able to hear the alarms!!! still in first and second stage of sleep...:s
2) dinner at other places? WHERE?
have better food than those in weekdays? is such food exists?!
3) Exercise is part of the entertainment here...

CONCLUSION>>>>>i prefer weekdays...at least, im not bored!!!!!!!!
god......

P.S. I Love You

You must be wondering why i stay up so late? it's 3.17am now...
what to do? i have 2 tests coming up, one genetics one principle of biotech. 3 freaking long chapters for gen and 7 freaking chapters for bte *sigh*
and as i've mentioned in my previous post, i have a presentation coming up too, remember the stupid regulation, patents and society of biotech? yeah, that's what i'm going to present for this coming saturday, wish me luck peeps!

there is a student based conference on 2nd of august, and i'm not sure whether i'm one of the presenter or not...(probably not...hah, i'm blur as usual~) but whoever it is, i just feel that this conference thingy is so....
troublesome!! what's the big fuss of this conference? why they need to organise such thing and force people to participate anyway? summore have to held like...roughly a week before finals?? these people are outta their mind..

some random updates,
my throat itches like mad, and i've been coughing my lungs out today. what's wrong with me??
and i have stuffy nose every now and then...i guess it's some pre-exam syndrome...everytime also like that, exams coming, and these small symptoms start showing up =(

boohoo, my family plans to go kl this coming week, but i am NOT following due to the heavy workload and i seriously need to revise for test too. i know my mum wanted me to go with them as she wants me to go visit my grandparents, arggh! mee, i want to go also...but i really cannot...don't make me feel worse by asking me again and again lar...i promise you guys i'll go whenever you guys want to after my finals kay?! ;)

by the way,
May!!! i want the PS I Love You Sountracks!!!

this is how i look when i tie up my new cut hair, hehe...i'm considering to cut my fringe though, considering...

Happiness is like a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp,
but, when you least expected it, may alight upon you.

random stuff

what if you mix violin and hiphop together?
sounds cool right?
check out Miri Ben-Ari, or also known as "the hip hop violinist"

So cool man....i wish i could play the violin!



by the way, i've cut my long mop hair...

then

now, haha..one-eyed freak eh eh, don't tell me no difference?

【漢家禮節】

交朋友的雅称

布衣之交：不计身份、不论职位而结交的朋友。

莫逆之交：彼此之间心心相印，情投意合，情深意笃。

刎颈之交：可同生死共患难，彼此荣辱与共，肝胆相照的朋友。

忘年之交：彼此年龄、辈分虽不相当，差距悬殊，但以互相倾慕而结识相交。
忘相之交：以心相许，不分你我。
忘言之交：无须用言语说明，而心照不宣、互知其意的朋友。
肺腑之交：推心置腹，无话不谈，言无不尽的朋友。
金石之交：朋友之间的情谊坚如金石。
金兰之交：情谊契合，亲如兄弟。
再世之交：与人父、子两代都相交。
车笠之交：不因贵贱高低而异的朋友。
患难之交：在困难时相交的知心朋友。
总角之交－总角：儿童发髻向上分开的结果。指童年时期就结交的朋友。(esp sue and shirling:) )
竹马之交－竹马：小孩当马骑的竹竿。童年时代就要好的朋友。
一人之交－好友；至交。谓亲密如一人。
一面之交－只见过一面的交情。比喻交情很浅。
心腹之交－指知己可靠的朋友。
乌集之交－指以利聚合，不以诚相待的交情。
纪群之交－纪、群：人名，陈纪是陈群的父亲。比喻累世之交情。
管鲍之交－春秋时，齐人管仲和鲍叔牙相知最深。后常比喻交情深厚的朋友。
缟纻之交－缟纻：缟带和纻衣。缟带指用白色绢制成的大带。纻衣指用苎麻纤维织成的衣服。指交情笃深。
泛泛之交－泛泛：一般，平常。交情不深的朋友
尔汝之交－尔汝：古人彼此以尔汝相称，表示亲昵。指交情亲密，不拘形迹。
点头之交－指交情甚浅，见了面只不过点点头而已。
道义之交－有道德有正义感的交往和友情。指互相帮助，互相支持的朋友。
淡水之交－友情像水一样清澈。指不以势利为基础的朋友。
杵臼之交－杵：舂米的木棒；臼：石臼。比喻交朋友不计较贫富和身分。
半面之交－同别人只见过一面的交情。意谓交情不深。
八拜之交－八拜：原指古代世交子弟谒见长辈的礼节，旧时朋友结为兄弟的关系。
忘形之交－不拘身分、形迹的知心朋友。
水鱼之交－指像鱼和水二者的关系一样。旧时指君臣之间或夫妻之间的情谊。
势利之交－势：权势；利：利益。为权势和利益进行的交往。指趋炎附势的朋友。
市道之交－指买卖双方之间的关系。比喻人与人之间以利害关系为转移的交情。
生死之交－可共生死的朋友；可共生死的情谊。
倾盖之交－盖：古车篷；倾盖：停车。指一见如故的朋友。
贫贱之交－贫困时结交的知心朋友
君子之交－贤者之间的交情，平淡如水，不尚虚华。

What IF?

A daydreamer like me...
will always think of...everything starts with

IF
IF, i was borned in ancient time
--in a rich family, i may become a dictator like wu ze tian
--in a poor family, i may be depressed or become a 'bitch' who is willing to do ANYTHING just to reach the goals...
its very awful as i know i should satisfy with what i have but i just can't stop myself from being greedy!

IF, i was borned in a very well-mannered family?(as like we can't tell joke with your parents, always have to say thank you,sorry...whatever..!! what they say is an order!)
---well i be who i am now??
i will become more rebelling or a more pollite person?

IF,my life isn't that in the way i plan?
............
..........
.......
.....
...
..
.

is kinda useless to think so many IFs...
but...
IF,
i don't leave malaysia?
if my dad cannot afford me to come here? and i have to stay in f6 and break my head to enter U?
if i don't want to become a doc?
what will i be?

if i can go back to the beginning? can 回到原点？

when life is getting better in india..i mean after i had adapted to this environment,
i missed everything in malaysia less (i won't deny this~)
but...i think i was wrong...
at least..i miss my home..my family my friends...
i may not miss the food , shopping or what...but i miss the places with memories...

是谁发明了‘家’这个字？

如果我从来都不认识它,

我的生活会少些烦恼，

还是多了苦闷？寂寞？

这到底是谁的错？？

是发明了这字的人？

还是建立家的人？！

found something....
Based on my birthday---
You are always curious and responsive to changes. Routine life is not the way you choose to live. Traveling is your favorite hobby because excitement is what you are after. Your Love, You will not stand being around the one you dislike. Your love comes and goes quickly. You can be deeply in love but soon after you will be looking around for the next one.

i think im very tired recently...
severe headache...cannot sleep properly at night...
haha...was sleeping from 1.30 til 5 pm! geng!?!!

May-
ps: I love you!
---is a good movie..:p

Sorethroat and...

Dang, i'm having sorethroat, a real bad one...literally i can feel the "flame" inside =(
hmm, i guess it should be the McD apple and banana pies i had yesterday.
i shall not talk unless i really HAVE to...haihz, i need strepsils badly.
anyway, we have done with our labs, therefore from this point onwards we will have full concentration on our syllabus, which is a good thing since the finals are like....a month away! *gasp*

anyway, some random and quite out-dated pics i should have post earlier but due to, you know...? laziness =p

taken during the awards presentation thingy..in the mph (multi-purpose hall)

a partial group pic as not everyone is inside... taken with the principal in his office
finally, a pic of my new genetics lecturer, told you he's young =p

my preparation for the plant tissue culture, the centrifuge tubes (blue-capped) contain the callus induction medium needed for the culture. heck, guess how many tubes i've prepared? 50!!

i've prepared some sterilizing and liquid medium solutions tooYEAH! after hours of hard work...okay, ignore the "chan" look of mine (lab ma, what do you expect?) oh yea, about the steel-made baskets right, they are actually meant for carrying all the tubes and bottles which are going to be autoclaved around 121 degree celcius in the autoclave machine.

didn't take any pic during the plant tissue culture, but these are the final products, each of us have 4 tubes of our own callus plants such as carrot, 2 cauliflower (1 contains the sodium hypochloride sterilizing agent another one contains...err, forgot jor, let me check when i go back to the lab, hehe..), and leaf callus.

did i mention my finger got burned while doing the culture? gosh, i guess those people did the culture before my turn had place the beaker containing 95% ethanol (for sterilizing the scapel and forceps) too near to the bunsen burner until the ethanol was caught into flame. we couldn't really see the flame but both the scapels and forceps were like burning hot as they were being soaked inside the ethanol...so by the time i wanted to take out the scapel...

OUCH!!!! walao....pain like hell...so i proceeded the experiment after the sensation eased a bit =(
haiz...labs are so dangerous!

materials..and more materials...most of the time we need to go over to bio or chemistry labs to search for reagent and chemicals...
p/s: May, i saw your dad today, in the morning =)

Take Me As I Am

Nella Fantasia, my current addiction :) freaking love the oboe solo part!

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

I Corinthians 13:4-8

epilogue:
take me as i am, or
have nothing at all.

Que Sera, Sera

...means whatever will be, will be

i shouldn't be thinking too much about it, as you've said, whatever will be, will be, i'll always remember that.

even though we're far apart right now, but what you have done and said to me will always remain in my heart.

you said you have faith in us, though i never tell you, i have too...because i'm too insecure to let you know, cuz no one, includes myself, knows what will happen in the future.

i'm doing the best i can and i hope you are too...

anyway, i'm just thankful to have you :)

and if you happen to read this, i wanna let you know that..

don't worry much about me, i'll be just fine...

take good care will you?

meeting you was fate,

becoming your friend was a choice,

but falling in love with you i had no control over.

Raining season in Manipal, India!

Rain vs Sunlight?
one makes you fall asleep which will stress you up during exam period; one force you to sleep due to severe headache caused by high temperature!

one dries your clothes within hours ; one remains your clothes in wet conditions for days!

when you plan to go out, one makes you give up the plan because you will get wet with no doubt and get cold then fall sick easily; one makes you consider the environmental factors in Manipal which are dust , bad road conditions etc and finally you will feel like staying in the hostel more~!

but....
both bring MOSQUITOES!!!!!
stupid idiot mosquitoes...
spoil my legs within 1 hour..
i went for dinner the day before and i found 24 bitten sites on my legs!!!

2 4!

i ain't joking okay!!

they are round, burning, inflame, hot and ITCHING!!!
guess what i did last night and today?
i put white medicated oil --minyak angin (hong youi in hokkien) on both of my legs..plus splash of water...if you never know what's the effect of using the WHITE medicated oil, you should go and buy one and try it..
if you used it before..(guess all of us used it before)...i think you can imagine the burning sensation i feel after 5 mins i apply it?!

monday night...i found a lizard in my room and i could never belief that it escaped into my cupboard!! that makes me couldn't sleep til 2 and have intermittent awakings for the whole night!!mood was totally spoiled by it!!!!

tuesday night...i couldn't sleep early because of the hong yoiu!! i never realized that the burning sensation can make ppl so awake!! luckily, it reduces the itchiness!:)
but...after few hours..i think when the effects are gone..the itchiness woke me up again and again!!
i had just done my test on hypnotics and sedative...maybe i should apply the drugs on myself to sleep properly!! what a conincidence!~!!!
should i for tonight?ish......


oh ya,
because of your comments (Justin and meizhi),
i started doing my journals myself......:)
seeing that the notes in journal are not given in the class too!
hehe....

people..help me..
my english and mandarin drop a lot!!!!!
im wondering whether the terms im learning nowadays are considered as a language??
i will have communication problems with you all soon if this condition worsen!!!!!!!
what should i do?!?!!:S
T_T