Friday, January 16, 2009

Time Forgets...

...to stop when i want it to =(

nah, i'm not getting all emo yet, although i'll be leaving in less in 3 weeks time. believe it or not, i'm not excited about leaving at all, at least the feeling hasn't really got into me yet. weird isn't it, back then i used to dream of studying overseas, and now when i'm able to, i really don't feel like leaving. yaya, i know i know, i'm very 矛盾.
had a couple of not so pleasant dreams lately, were they indicating something? do dreams reflect what has been on the mind or they are signs of what will happen in the future?
easily distracted lately too, as though my mind and body don't function together anymore, grrr..phek chek! words come from my mouth sometimes are unlogical, things that i done just don't seem right, and even the sentences i'm typing here sound awkward.

chinese new year is around the corner, and for the first time i'm NOT looking forward to it. seriously, i'm not. my mind starts to wander around when i've nothing better to do (yea, like now..) so i'll try to occupy myself by cleaning up the room, help my mum to bake new year cookies, fetch my sis or better still, train her to become a better driver haha, "stalk" others' profiles (teehee~should say that i show great interest in knowing others life ;P) and watch dramasss!

been listening to Yiruma's recently, and his music really do wonders in soothing emotions. just like one of his works, "Time Forgets..."

4 gimme more:

Chen Yi said...

Shu Xian!

I've been thru what u are experiencing now. In fact, I'm not looking forward to leaving too :( Mine's in abt 3 weeks' time too. When are you flying?

This is an emo period, but we'll get thru it! Be happy cuz we still get to celebrate CNY in Penang with our beloved ones... *smiles*

Be positive and treasure every moment left yea :)

Sue-zy said...

i think a lot of ppl who are going overseas soon experience the same thing too. sigh, hate those feelings =(
i'm leaving on the 5th...boohoo~
yea, i'll try to be positive! trying trying..

May said...

nah...think you are proving what i experienced last time was normal...
just that yours occur somewhat too early..i had that kind of fear feeling and nightmares only after i came here...and trust me..the dreams are not true,not even indicating anything related~
its just another type of homesick or hidden fearness that had not been exposed to you only!:)

you better get adapted fast to these emotional stuffs...haiz...
will have it more when you are alone later...|||

anyway,just enjoy your CNY..
you will regret that you dint celebrate it properly when you find out that you can't celebrate it later in Aus...

冥冥中自有天意!
if you are given the opportunity to study overseas,just give your best and the best will approach you...
you never knew,this may be one of the best moment in your life too!^^

michiko said...

hey sue!! you're leaving on 5th feb?? that's early!! I am only leaving on 1st march!

Just enjoy your New Year coz it's great to have a family reunion before you leave. You dont get the chance once you go there.

So all the best to you and maybe we can meet up over there! =)