The D Word I Fret

disappoint: fail to be or do something as good or interesting etc as was hoped for or desired or expected by somebody
disappointed: sad or dissatisfied because one/somebody has failed, some desired event has not happened, etc

I think i'm jinxed or something.
Everytime i plan or up to something, something special (which i don't get to do often) usually i'll picture the whole process and all those possible outcomes. positive outcomes.
I would imagine a lot of scenes that would go my way. and i HOPE it'd better go according my way.
but the fact is most probably things WON'T go my way at all!
worse still, it ends up the worst way i could ever imagine.
why ar? why?

for example, if you've already packed your stuff and all and ready to go travel, let's say..to europe. and you've been anticipating it for weeks...
but at the very last minute you notice that you've lost your passport, how?!
*phhufff* suddenly you feel like you're being zapped into the cruel reality.. ouch!

the frustration, the disappointment and perhaps slight anger...
what can you do to make things better?

of course i'm not facing the exact situation as i've mentioned, but something that also results in DISAPPOINTMENT, frustration and slight anger.

too many disappointments. i don't know how much and how long i could handle this anymore. *sigh*