Been feeling very moody lately.
Never know that from uni application to accommodation application and to visa application can be so stressful.
APART from these, there are other stuff that bothering me too. some stuff. But the problem is that i don't even know who to turn to, i seriously want someone to talk to, someone who i can trust, someone who is supportive. Yet the ironic part is, even though there is such person, in the end, i find it really hard to actually pour everything out. Even if i did, there's a high chance i'll regret after that. i just don't know why.
Maybe it's my nature to build up a wall to prevent others to see what i'm actually thinking, cuz i'm afraid that once they have access to my thought, my feelings..they'll start to abuse and manipulate it. kinda scary isn't it?
There were times where i was this close to give up what i've been holding on for so long, little did i know that i don't have the guts to do so, because most probably there is NO turning back once letting it go.
Too many unknowns, hence the insecurities.
am i making the right choice at the very beginning? or i was wrong for all these while?
perhaps only time will tell...
p/s: kel, did you know that your sms-es actually cheer me up at the right time?
a small gesture like that is enough to make my day. SERIOUSLY.
